jusqu'ici, tout va bien. . .

the scream

2010-01-18T21:23:00.003-05:00

one cool, dark, but star-filled night, while walking a serpentine path thru a pasture, i heard a distant scream.

as i turned to look over my right shoulder, i saw the moon smiling down at me. when i later took a second look, both the smile & the moon were gone.

a new year

2010-01-10T16:00:00.007-05:00

a small stout bird sat on a bush persistently chirping outside my window.

i tapped on the glass & shouted discouragement. the bird ignored my admonitions, and continued loudly singing until after i had lost interest.

a haiku

2009-03-07T07:34:00.003-05:00

there is no one here
saying anything more now
listen to silence

a few random thotts

2009-01-17T09:45:00.007-05:00

in a curious fit of ignorance I uprooted & destroyed two earthstars. I found myself violently intrigued by their unfamiliar being. but, what had they done to me?

tiny fungi with light brown stems and small black caps sprouted up in groups from the ground beneath the wood.

just as I inhale and exhale, my mind repeatedly returns to rest on the emptiness left in your absence.

an ongoing story

2008-12-10T10:59:00.004-05:00

while walking the dog down a wooded path, she came across a bone and lay down to chew on it. I walked slightly up the path and sat under a tree to wait. as I sat, the wind blew, and leaves fell all around me. I felt an occassional drop of rain on my face. after a time, the dog finished chewing & ran toward me. we continued down the path where we saw new deer tracks in the ground.

another thing..

as I stood on a cold night, gazing up at the stars in the midnight sky, I could think only of one thing.

current events

2008-10-20T19:34:00.004-04:00

Several long branches protruded from a bush whose branches were otherwise short.

I captured a moth in a dixie cup and released it to the outside world.

I stopped to watch the sun melt a thick fog that lay on a field of wild flowers

I escaped a large elaborate web suspended high in mid-air by an absent spider.

while holding awareness in my hands, a siren sounded in the distance. over time, the sound receded.

from time to time, trees pitch pine cones in my direction. having no eyes, they often miss.

early in the morning air I see my breath before me.

while walking the dog, I happened upon a deer carcass and I was reminded of my own mortality.

waving a white flag of surrender

2008-10-06T10:58:00.005-04:00

an endless stream of raindrops rolled along the edge of a silver awning, and then dropped one by one onto the wet, green grass below.

while sitting in a large white lawn chair contemplating lunch, I heard a soft thud as I saw a clump of wasps hit the gravel after falling from a nest. one by one they flew spiraling up from the ground back into the nest.

not far away, two butterflies danced together in the air, after a few moments each flew off in a different direction.

while listening to a bird singing loudly outside my window, I wondered what was the meaning of the lyrics to the song.

during a walk down my usual path, I realized I was being consumed by desire. eventually I reached home and began to wash the dishes.

as I sat reading on the ground, countless tiny gnats suspended in the evening air danced a frenzied dance, while a chorus of crickets sang an endless love song.

a trip

2008-10-01T11:57:00.014-04:00

one day in mexico, this happened...

something else unexpected..

while sitting under a tree, I watched a bee fly from tiny white flower to tiny white flower. nearby several moths were doing the same thing. I heard a rustling sound behind me. I turned to watch as a red, orange and green leaf fell from the top of a tree to the ground beneath. it hit several branches as it fell.

on another day in the back yard, this happened...

early fall

2008-09-28T22:17:00.007-04:00

Sometimes I find myself dreaming without first having been asleep.

I became aware that I was fascinated by the word "sepulchre." I later judged the fascination as morbid.

Someone told me that karma is attachment to past identity. I entertained the idea as I found myself in a forest that was filled with karma.

I poured cereal into an empty bowl. I poured milk over the cereal. I then used a spoon to convey the milk and cereal from the bowl into my mouth. After a short period, the bowl was again empty.

A tiny spider crawled thru the air suspended by an invisible thread. It disappeared into some pine needles, and was never seen again.

I thought to myself, object, or no object, one comes to appreciate the space created in the absence of something much the same as appreciating the thing itself.

not very long ago

2008-09-21T12:21:00.007-04:00

While waiting at a bookstore counter, a small girl stared down at my shoes. After a time, she looked into my eyes and smiled.

As I walked across a baseball field, I paused to consider a wooden stick that stuck out of the ground and leaned against a metal fence.

A gray old woman in a wheelchair waited by a curb. From time to time she glanced in my direction. Her face remained expressionless.

As I sat in a parking lot, I gazed at a tree that had grown around a chain-link fence.

A large formation of geese flew overhead in a northwesterly direction. I continued to hear their calling from a distance.

A woman I did not know looked at me and smiled. I smiled back at her without saying a word.

A sheer curtain from an open window blew against my leg as I wrote this.

I paused for a moment as I allowed strong feelings of contempt to arise, and then slowly exit from my awareness.

a brief narrative

2008-09-20T00:07:00.001-04:00

I lay on my left side staring into nothing; slowly breathing in and out. A bird sang persistently outside my open window. Suddenly the singing stopped. As traffic noises arose and dissolved, I listened to the silence between the sounds.

in other isolated incidents...

I stared at my watch as nothing continued to happen.

I watched two butterflies alight on the same leaf. After a short time one flew away. The other remained on the leaf.

While recalling a humorous moment, I chuckled slightly to myself. Eventually my thoughts turned to something else.

a short while ago

2008-09-18T10:48:00.006-04:00

A loud alarm sounded from a clock reading 7am. For a moment I wondered where I was. I reached out to shutoff the alarm.

I saw a fan rotating in a counter-clockwise direction. There was a slight breeze emanating from the fan.

I pondered the meaning of the word "hipster." Over time my curiosity faded.

I looked at my dog and yawned in the same moment that my dog looked at me and yawned.

While walking across the yard, I noticed I was walking into the wind.

A butterfly flew across my path. It did not pause to beg my pardon.

Among millions of green blades of grass, a few had tiny purple, or yellow flowers.

Crickets chirped loudly from a bush along a path. As I approached, the chirping stopped altogether.

A spongy, fushia-colored stalk protruded vertically fom the ground. When I brushed it with my foot, it was uprooted and fell sideways into a horizontal position.

another day

2008-09-17T01:15:00.001-04:00

I watched a truck carrying small cages full of live chickens roll down the highway..

I vacuumed the carpet using a back and forth motion until all the visible debris was sucked into the dust chamber.

I listened to the sounds made by different bells as they were individually rung.

While walking through the hall, I noticed a door was ajar. I reached for the doorknob and pulled it toward me.

I answered the phone, and I could not remember if I had been sleeping when it rang.

I noticed a middle-aged woman sitting in a waiting room, whose feet were perfectly pedicured.

I picked up the phone to call a friend, then put it back down after I considered the time.

I contemplated the purpose of eyebrows on a dog.

I toasted a slice of bread. I then used a knife to evenly distribute butter over the surface of the toasted bread.

just today

2008-09-15T13:50:00.003-04:00

after walking the dog in the woods, I washed mud from my feet with the hose.

I noticed small blue flowers on the bush outside my window.

a bird sat on a wire and continued to sing.

after viewing a film, I was completely silent.

eventually, noises came out of nowhere, and sank back into nothing.

I watched a butterfly sit motionless, still clinging to its cocoon.

I banged a ball of string against a post, and wasps flew out.

a gnat flew close to my face and landed on my arm. I swatted it with my hand. it somersaulted to the floor where it lay dead.

I was reminded, "that death is the opposite of birth, and that life has no opposite."

someone told me that today was an unlucky day. a part of me believed him.

sometimes I catch myself waiting for something to happen.

as I walked from beneath the shelter, a raindrop hit my forehead and splashed across my face.

some time ago. . .

I watched a hummingbird hover above a plant with red flowers. then it suddenly flew away.

I watched clouds float slowly across the sky, but I never saw where they went.

a crawfish crawled across the yard. I gave it a name. a few days later, I found it dead.

I watched a woodpecker repeatedly pecking on metal stadium lights.

a hawk flew an arc overhead. it was pursued thru the air by a smaller bird.

a man missing his front teeth pulled a car onto the lawn under a tree. he did not speak much english.

a snake lay underneath a tree. it had swallowed something large. I looked into its eyes, and walked away. a bird chased the snake under a bush.

a man in a green truck told me that he had seen large alligators while walking thru the swamp.

a girl at the drive-thru put change in my hands and sent a shiver down my spine.

I watched a snake climb up a tree. the bark made a soft crackling sound as it ascended.

I found white feathers, entrails, and a small white egg scattered in a field on easter day.